Being on the verge of 40 is a very strange thing when you barely feel out of your 20's. The phrase 'age ain't nothing but a number' has never held more meaning to me.
Having said that, I'm also light years from who I was in my 20's. As 40 approaches, I've been reflecting on everything I've been through - especially over the past decade...
... 10 years ago, I was a newlywed who had just undergone major lung surgery
... 9 years ago, I was starting grad school to change careers to the fitness industry
... 7 years ago, I simultaneously graduated grad school, separated from my soon-to-be ex-husband and was about to start life as a divorcee
... 5 years ago, I could now add "Boston Marathon Finisher" to my list of accomplishments :)
… 4 years ago, I stepped on stage in my 1st bikini show and immediately followed it up with my 2nd back surgery,
… 3 years ago, I had recently come off a 3rd place finish in my 2nd bikini show and became an auntie for the first time :)
... 2 years ago, My mom would unexpectedly pass away on the day after Christmas. Regardless of how long ago it was, it will always feel like yesterday.
... This past year was a mix of highs and lows, from fulfilling a long-time dream of traveling to Ireland to losing an influential person in my life to suicide, which was another somber reminder that no matter how old you get, life is still so short.
Getting older is a strange thing. I think many of us have expectations of what we'll be like at a certain age BUT (at least in my experience) once you get to that age, you find yourself in a very different set of circumstances.
If you had asked me 10 years ago where I see myself at 40 years old, I would have said:
- Married with kids (a girl and a boy),
- Working in Human Resources (the industry I was in at the time),
- Homeowner living south of Boston in the ‘burbs
Sure, I get bummed sometimes that I haven't had kids yet when most of my friends are on their 2nd, 3rd, even 4th kid in some instances. Although I certainly haven't ruled out kids yet either, despite approaching the ripe ol' age of 40. However, I've accepted the fact that just because I pictured my life a certain way, that doesn't mean that's how it's going to go.
I can choose to stomp my feet and pout about it (not very becoming behavior for an almost 40-year old, ha) OR I can embrace the positive things happening in my life, be open to new experiences and set myself up for a different life that's even better than one I could have pictured for myself.
I'm a chronic Googler, especially when I'm bored, so I was Googling random things about turning 40 and a list came up about things to experience before turning 40. My first thought was, "cool, let's see how many I've done" until I realized the list contained things like "sit court side at your fave team's home game", "eat grilled steak in Brazil", "Go yachting in Monaco", "Go on a spiritual journey in Jerusalem or Vatican City".
Um, I'm sorry, what? There very well may be 'almost 40-something's out there reading the list like, "ok, check... check... yup, did that... did that too..." but clearly this list wasn't made for someone who changed paths and started from the bottom of a new career, flat broke, at age 30.
I'm pretty motivated to ring in my 4th decade feeling at my best (thus far) physically, emotionally, mentally, and, ideally, financially :) Along with that may come my own list of "things to experience before age 40" but safe to assume it won't involve camel-back riding in the desert or betting it all in high stakes gambling at the high rollers table in Vegas.
Above all, I'm looking forward to ringing in my 40's feeling good about where I am in life, optimistic for the future, trying not to sweat the small stuff and taking this age thing in stride ;)
|May not be over 40 yet but this is so, so very true ;)|